Oct 20, 2010

20.10.2010 it use to hurt.

It's twenty-ten twenty-ten! What a special day to write this post.

It brings me teary eyes as I'm writing this post but what must be done to bring final closure must be done now. Today just happens to be my three months anniversary of being a single lady wohoo!

It's been a rather difficult journey for me the past three months because not a day went by without thoughts of him and our past. First month was absolute torture with memories flooding my brain like there was no tomorrow. The fact that it happened during summer didn't help either because when I couldn't keep myself busy, I thought about stupid shit. I'm just glad that my friends (real life and internet friends) helped me get through the first month. Thank you all for being there for me ^_^

Prom '08

This is my favourite picture of us. There won't be another picture like this again.

The second month got slightly better. When school started, I decided to take matter into my own hands. I made myself busy by getting a job, started blogging more regularly, hung out with new and old friends, and pretty much did anything that would take my mind off of things. I think it worked out quite well but I knew it would take just a bit more time for everything to settle down though.

Now that we're at the end of the third month, I think I'm ready. I'm ready to put it all behind me and move forward. I for one refuse to live in the past! I know the future awaits for me. This girl is ready to tackle whatever comes her way!

Two thumbs up!

Helen gives her two thumbs up, meaning everything will be just fine. I want to share a quote that gave me strength when I felt weak: there's no greater power than the power to move on, to start over and leave it all behind. A broken heart is not the end of the world because what doesn't kill you will make you stronger.

On a final note, I must thank a girl for making all of this happen. I do not know who you are but thanks for bringing me all that excruciating pain. But you know what? I am now stronger than ever before all to you.


  1. You go girl!! I know you're a strong woman, and I'm glad you feel able to move on now. You know we're all here to support you... :)

  2. This is such a great post helen. keep staying that positive, funloving, awesome girl that you are^^
    besides, you are way too young to be tied down! XD

  3. thank you for your post helen :) its inspiring and i look up to you. the future is bright and exciting yea? im somewhat in your situation right now and you made me realise if you can do it, i can too :)

    im happy to see you smmiling in that picture ^^

    take care :)

  4. you are strong =O continue to stay it!

  5. aw.. helen. *virtual hug*

    I'm sorry to hear about what happen to you know who and you. :(

    Like what you said in your post "what doesn't kill you will make you stronger".

    Eventually with time the pain will be less and all that will be memories.

    You're a great person and i'm sure that in the future you'll be able to find another great guy with whom you'll have other great memories with.

    For the time being thank you for sharing this difficult and emotional post.

    stay strong. :)

  6. Hey lovie! I'm glad to hear that you're doing better :D Being single isn't a bad thing. It gives you space to really think for yourself and you can be selfish without feeling the guilt. Haha.

    My advice, go out and have fun! Flirt all you want (but don't whore yourself out LoL). I'm glad that you're keeping busy. Otherwise, you would have still been very sad over your breakup.

    I will update one of these days now that midterms are over. LoL. Lots of hugs!

  7. Thanks for your comment Helen, you're very welcome *hugs back*

    You're right, I should make the first move, no one is going to do it in my place ^.^ -- you're giving me strenght, thank you!! And I know, starting a convo with a complete and total stranger isn't usually my style either... Thankfully I have the kind of face people like to talk to (sometimes those people are really weird and scary too o.O ) So maybe next time....

    (why do I always keep saying this to myself -___-)

  8. time heals all wounds :) happy to see a happy face and two thumbs up! you've got a great future ahead of you helen1 :D

  9. Aw hunny, I'm glad you're doing better. Keep smiling and stay positive damn it! Haha =)

  10. Great quote and thanks for sharing your story with us. It's always great to see that it is possible to move on. More power to you!

  11. OMGAH!!!! That is a great idea!! Like a midterm pick me up. Haha I have no clue as to rules on these packages. Let me know all about it. Sounds funn!!!

  12. I'm so happy you're doing better! Lookin' great in that last pic!

  13. I didn't know that.... we could of hang out more :)

    I feel like I look at it as having the time to blog, dance with the music in my mind and get creative....

    I really enjoy writing your honest post... we need to go eat pho together...